The words of Amos Leak: love poem

Since its the official love day I feel like sharing the work of my dear friends that I've had the pleasure of meeting in this life time.

"HER heart melts in my thoughts as I dream of pure moments, constant intuitions of insane intimacy. Clear ideas of how we will... unionize. But don't have me guessing. your love is a blessing and will never be replaced. Faced with the option of never knowing, how far this will go. So we just grow... embrace the peace that lives in the lines we create in. Don't say I didn't tell you how much you mean... statement. I could only imagine what you feel or how you see me, I just want to gain your trust, the rest will take care of itself"

I enjoyed reading it and I hope you did too.

This relationship is very cute and I've seen it grow. They've been together for a number of years and I like that they have chosen to enjoy their relationship. They must get the infamous question of when are you getting married....I won't lie, I thought it too! BUT!!! I respect that they are taking their time and operating their relationship on THEIR terms and no one else's! Kudos to this puppy love! (just because they're a little younger then me.)

More to come in the name of love...

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Love is..... Poetic contribution join in!

LOVE is....
The presence of every emotion all at once
Like looking at your child for the very first time.
Like riding a roller coaster with endless drops…
Without limits:
Real... Deep…Kind... pure.... truth…
unexplainable but Good for the soul
Love is the Greatest
Like when you order a 10 piece spicy nugget meal and they mess up and give you 11
Like realizing that somewhere in the world someone’s heart beat is in sync with yours
Completion.. transforming… Brave…
Love always wins…
God is love
And LOVE IS LIFE
by Us... inspired by LaQuanda MoveMeant McCallum


This is a piece created by a number of people who saw the words Love is....and felt like sharing their meaning of love. No restrictions were given, they just wrote what was on their heart. I'm wondering if you can guess which part came from me. ...........Go ahead, I'll wait. lol ok I'll tell you!
When I read the title Love is.....my first response was 'patient and kind' but I took a moment to think of how I really feel when I love. I thought of the goose bumps that take over my body from the top of my head to the sole of my dancing feet. However even in my adult years, I get this feeling of butterflies in my stomach but at times it feels more like one huge butterfly that only needs to flap its wings once to sore. So when this butterfly can go anywhere b/c its reached the top of my stomach presses down again to get a great start/push off. This stinking butterfly is determined to leave my body, but doesn't realize that she's stuck with me. I'm the mama! lol

Another way to describe one of my feelings of love, is when you're riding a roller coaster and you take that first deep steel force drop! The way my stomach drops is the way I feel about the one I love. A steel force kind of love! So if you haven't guessed it already, My contribution to this poem is:
"Like riding a roller coaster with endless drops..." I love every part of this poem but one of my favorites is "love is the presence of every emotion all at once"..... mmmm come on here somebody

Add your words. keep it going!


Love is.....??

Distracted love

Some love day

Last night, tears fell slowly in the name of love. Starting  off light as a feather they gained weight as they dropped collecting makeup particles along the way. Streaks formed on the cheek sporadically  representing the very meaning of love..... so many things at the same time. Joy, pain, acceptance, denial, truth, interference, long lasting,  forced, fearless, open, scary,  forever type of love....... she blots, not right now!

Don't do it! Pressure builds in her chest as she's determined to hold 'it' in!  Searching the room for lurking eyes making sure she can maintain her superwoman status. Coaching herself, I won't break! She turns into a plum shade as she holds back! Running to a secluded space, eyes turn red and fill with tears to the brim just to the point where more tears will fall at a blink, but not yet. She can't find an empty room so she runs. Maybe in here....... ? Occupied! Where to go! She has to get this out but no one can see. She has to keep this to herself! That's what she was taught, don't let them see you sweat !!!

So that's just it! Keep it MOVING!! FIND  your 'secret place'!! She yells at herself internally. She needed to go there and scream! I gotta let it out!!!
Just when she thought her head would explode from holding it in, she spotted an open door to a balcony. Sheer curtains blew outwards signaling for her to go in that direction for peace. That's what she needed right? Peace. Her tears gave in to gravity and smeared her make up. Feeling like she  couldn't do it anymore, her knees buckled. The search for an out had weakened  her.  The weight of her hurt, pain and anguish dragged her down to the ground limb by limb. A magnetic force held her back from receiving her peace and from allowing her to release all the things she chose to hold in for so long. Burried in such a dark place for a very long time. So long that she was unaware of this burden she adorned.

There was a light that shined and glistened from the balcony. As the light escaped it sneakily touched her face as the curtains danced in the breeze. It grazed  her face without her permission. She wanted to be upset because she felt like she lost control again! But it was gentle and took her mind off the damage she had experienced on this journey.  Every time the light kissed her face she became energized.  although held captive her body was reminded of its strength. Feeling like three times it's weight she dragged her arms and body towards the balcony. I must get OUT!! I NEED to receive that peace! That's what fed her determination! The sound of her soul weeping was her background  music but it was also her motivation. As she got closer to the door the glistening light grew brighter, almost blinding.

The skin on her legs burned from the friction during her travel. She grew numb as time went on. She passed a few onlookers but they didn't understand the process and were distracted by their own pain. They had become deaf from their own screams and cries they weren't  able to recognize her desperate SILENT cries for help!

Out  of breath, face soaked from her bucket of tears, eyes bloodshot red, dark circles surrounding  her eyes  she still refused to let it out. All! Most! There! She thought while exhausted...... if I make it out side, I can let it out, no one will see and everything will be okay...... right?

Her arms bled as she inched on the balcony floor. She slowly cried out, Peace? Are you here? She cried more and louder.. she let out a big scream! Shouted PEEEAAAAACEE!!!!!!!?????? nothing ......... she exhaled and melted...... please! I need you.....

2015! Next UP! Destiny stage play

So the dream continues! They say that you have to get out of Philly to do any type of art, especially acting. They say you ain't going no where in the industry if you stay here! Well in some ways that may be true depending on what you do. However, we have to also realize that Philadelphia and the surrounding areas have so much talent its sickening (in a good way, ya know...like they used to say in the 90's that's dumb stupid, uhh lol ok you got the point right?) It's 2015 and the acting communities have grown tremendously! The question I ask myself is what took me so long to get out there in my hometown??? There are plays, TV shows, Movies, short films, Youtube series out the wazoo!! You don't have to go far to be a part of it!

I won't dwell on the why not's for too long, because I may miss my next opportunity. The only way to go from here is forward!

Back in November 2014, I was informed of another audition for an upcoming play. I quickly sent my resume in to request an audition. The play is called Destiny Stage Play. Its about a girl that has a dream to be a singer/artist and she goes through the ups and downs of the industry and life in general. When I went for my audition, they asked who I wanted to audition for. I was open and didn't have any specific requests. But you know! if Destiny was a singer....that meant......the audition included singing.........*sideeye lol we already talked about this singing thing!! I can hold a note! I've had solos in choirs!! I have performed at college events!!! I even had a lead in a play that had to belt out the song, 'Sometimes I feel like a motherless child'. And ya know, people liked what they heard! At least I think they did!! They clapped, and cheered! They even had on the ugly 'you betta sing that song girl' face on while I sang! So, listen, I can sing.......but those nerves honey! They get the best of me at the worst times!!!

I went in this audition with a different song this time. I said let me sing a song that I would sing to my daughter while she was in the womb and after she was born! The Lord's Prayer Yes that's it!!! (I was convinced). I practiced in the shower and in the car.. it sounded ok then. When the audition came around though??? lol...I could have kicked myself! What in Gods name was I thinking! That was NOT lead aspiring singer material! lol. I performed my monologue and they let me read from the script which was a good sign. They told me that I looked familiar and it was because they knew my work twin, Nyoka.. lol..It was also because they recognized me from the 'Club 44' Play. The director for this new play, John W. Graves III said something to me that stuck in my head. I don't remember the words verbatim, but he said that I was basically not giving as much as I could in Club 44. He wanted to see me give MORE......

I read for several parts a few times, and then......it was time to sing. Oh Lawd. Three pairs of eyes in a cold room at a performing arts center just stared at me waiting for me to start. I cleared my throat and parted my lips and with my throat voice sang "Our faaaaatherrrrr, which art in heaveeennnnn....Hallowed beeeeeee thyyyyy naaaaaame!!!..." If they were unprofessional they probably would have let out a 'mm girl no!' lol...but they didn't. I didn't sing long, but I did end with a sorry I get nervous when it comes to singing....(lack of confidence I know, but it was not good so I had to let them know)

Any way, I got a part despite the *clears throat* singing fiasco! I will be playing the part of Tamika, a gold digging, video vixen. *shocked face* I know right!? lol...I get to channel the inner ratchet! I've been having sooo much fun with this. I can't wait for you all to see!



Oh yea! my new set of cast mates are pretty decent! check out the trailer www.youtube.com/destineystageplay

Stay tuned for more about this Destiny Stage Play experience! Until then, get your tickets!  www.destinystageplay.com   #nodreamleftbehind





Thanks for reading, until next time...be blessed!

your Natural ReACTress
Sheesha